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TGFG: Addition to "The Boyfriend Dilemma"

 I was once told that I live my life like a cliche. 

Well, the thing with cliches and quotes, and age-old sayings are that oftentimes, if not all, they are true. 

Yes, I live my life as if it were a stupid silly little cliche. Yes, I too (although I say that I don't) have certain expectations from a relationship that I just assume things. 

That any and all men that are even remotely interested in me should "just know" what I expect from them and vise versa, especially with this one because we have been friends for so long, and so forth. 

But I guarantee you, they don't. 

Moses (that's his pen name) has no clue how I feel about him. Even though when we are together we do know because we both feel it. It's electric. 

Moses has no clue that not saying something silly and very cliche to me in a text such as "good morning" is what keeps me knowing that those feelings we have when we are together are still there while we are apart. 

No, he doesn't know...

and I am not going to tell him. 

I am not going to tell him because it isn't that important. 

It really isn't that important that I hear from the guy each morning with a "good morning" and each night with a "good night" because I trust the process. 

I trust his sincerity and I am not going to tell him because if I do, I am giving him certain expectations to live by when any and all of this should come naturally from the heart. 

Organic.

It feels good to have full faith and trust in someone, including myself. 

I don't even think he reads these silly blogs. 

In fact, I am actually surprised they are being read! 

Ninety-eight on the last post. 

Thank you! 

This is a self-proclaimed message that regardless of anything, we don't need to feed ourselves with the idea of what it is supposed to be like in a relationship. 

If that's even what this is... 

That's not fair to either of us. 

Those intimate moments we share, have shared, will share, and those cozy moments of days that run into nights, and nights that run into days, and days that I leave and am asked to come back again, are ours. 

I have never experienced a love like this before. 

On 

every 

single 

dynamic. 

Cliche, right?

Or is it. 

Only time will tell. 


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  1. Even if you don't say anything, you still have expectations. If you didn't have expectations, you wouldn't have hopes and dreams.

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