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So this is love...

I almost hesitate to write anything personal (I mean let's get real because now it's real) about my love life, but I must say... if I should say anything at all, that I am feeling the love.  Most of you (that I think read this silly blog anyway) have asked if the guy I have been talking about on here and I have reconnected, and the answer is, yes...  I feel so happy!  Okay, so the relationship isn't perfect, but no relationship is. Yeah, I still have a few reservations that all of this could end at any minute, and then what? I also ask myself if we are both hesitant and reserved to really fall for one another - as in - in love - outside of the love we felt before we actually got it on, ahem, I mean had for one another previously while we were just friends.  Men are most certainly difficult, and I know at times I just don't have the right words or forget things, or maybe am not this or that, but does it matter? Not really.  I have stopped thinking about over-thinking and
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